I suspect there may be valid reasons why I struggle to make friends even though my intentions toward them are good.

I always want a friend, or maybe two. I want a friend who I can share my interests with and they share theirs. We could just geek out loud about some mutual things. I'll think about them first, when I see something they like. I'll message them when an idea pops up and be ready to hear theirs too. I'll listen deeply to their pain, empathize, try not to judge, try not to offer them a temporary fix like putting a bandage on a wound.

Still here are what I need to work on:

1. Personal space - I should learn to respect boundary and not take it as rejection.

2. Possessive & controlling behavior - The friend is not mine and mine alone.

3. Expectation - I should not expect anything in return because it only leads to disappointment.

Those are real skills which are impossible to master in one night.

And they could be the main reasons why I cannot make friends, not right now. And I still have to live with that.